
5th August marked a year since I started flying. Boy, has a lot happened since. Like every other job, there are its ups and downs. People in general think the life of a cabin crew is ‘cool’ because we get to travel far and wide and get paid for it. Before, I used to think so too. I thought it was awesome to be flying around all the time. Now, a year in… I still love what I’m doing, but somehow I wished some things could change.
Each airline crew have different work patterns. Some get to go home every day, some go on trips lasting a week and get to come home. My work pattern varies. We used to get trips that were six-eight days long with a maximum of two weeks before coming home. Nowadays, our trips stretches up to 16 days, and 21 days if we were really unlucky. We get at least 8 off days at home like any other jobs, still it isn’t enough because there are times our off days are when everyone else is working.
I’ve missed out on so many things during the past year. Especially during the first six months of probation where I couldn’t take any leave, I’ve missed countless of family events, parties and worst of all, I missed my own sister’s engagement… and I wasn’t there for my cousin’s wedding. God knows how I felt being in a foreign land away from family on Hari Raya.
Family and friends get used to my absence. They even are surprised when I actually show up for something. They’d be like, “Oh, you’re back!” or “Not working, today?” or even “Is it really you?!” before asking the sure-fire, “When are you leaving next?”
Time spent away working had been a roller coaster ride; you meet the best and the worst of people. When it’s good, it’s brilliant. I’ve gone places with the crew, got into lots of mischief.. had tons of fun. Then there are times when you’re the only Singapore crew amongst the Aussie or Thai crew and you’d feel left out… I call those ‘emo trips’ and I’ve been getting those a lot lately. Those really suck.
Then you come home for a few days and you wanna do everything at once. I wanna spend time with my family, do laundry, catch up with my friends, stock up for the next trip, finally accept an invitation to a party, cut my hair, watch the latest offerings in the theatres… all those in addition to crawling into your own bed and sleep for hours at a time. It ain’t easy.
Hanging out with friends can be quite a challenge because of conflicting schedules. A year ago, Rasyidah was so excited to be starting school in the east, which meant we could see more of each other. Hahahahahaha nope. I decided to fly far away from her, and now aside from the frequent and random Whatsapp chats, we hardly see each other. Honestly, I try my best to hang out with everyone when I’m back, but it goes to show those who really care, and those who are just fleeting by. And usually the people I get to see every time I am back, are the ones who matter most.
I hardly go on trips with friends anymore because I can’t seem to get leaves when they can. While I used to be the last minute pack-my-bag-and-book-a-ticket-and-go kinda girl, I can’t afford to do it anymore. When I actually do get to go on a trip with friends…… ohhhh the feeling. Don’t get me started on ways I bend the rules to enable me to get to my other cousin’s engagement… NO WAY IN HELL AM I GONNA MISS ANOTHER ONE.
One thing I learn is things don’t stop for you when you’re gone. Change is constant. There are people I got closer to since I started this job; people who aren’t vocal about their feelings for me before I started disappearing from their faces tell me that they’ve missed me. There are people who drifted away because of the time I cannot give; relationships don’t work out because he doesn’t understand what my job entails… and right now I am in between can’t-be-bothered-with-relationships and oh-my-God-am-I-going-to-grow-old-alone-with-forty-black-cats. I can’t decide.
I have one year left in my contract before I decide to continue or shift, or clip my wings for good. In the mean time, I am Intan who’s home 8 days in a month, trying to juggle laundry, being a couch potato and having a social life. Love me, or hate me… I really don’t give a rat’s ass. Because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.