Credits: Johnna Holmgren
Just a couple of weeks ago I’ve received an email stating that my lease on a .com was going to expire at the end of the year. And I was thinking: Crap, it’s already November. What have I done this year? Not much, really.
Despite being to two new countries this year (Taiwan and India), I rolled along with the most of the year feeling mostly uninspired. I didn’t make any changes on the noticeboard I hung by the side of my bed, nor have I made any significant changes in my life other than my frequent hairstyle changes. I mostly cut my hair, curl them, straighten them again.. or let them grow to compensate for my lacklustre days. Don’t get me wrong, there are a couple of very good days spent with friends and loved ones. But maybe I’m just going through the float-down-the-river-aimlessly phase.
These days I hated going on social media to see my friends travelling to all sorts of exotic places while I am stuck in a cycle of work, sleep, eat and work again. I feel trapped in a cage of uncertainties because right now I’m caught in a limbo of whether I’ve been accepted for this new opportunity, or should I just move on.
It’s a great opportunity, too exciting to pass. But it has been 3.5 months since going for the interview, and spending all the time and effort and money to get all the paperwork done, then the long periods of time where I’d be checking my email feverishly for a reply of some sort. It’s maddening.
Partly because of the opportunity, I can’t make any concrete plans like applying for leaves, or going for a trip. I expressed my frustrations to Ummar one night, saying that the last trip I went for was India; I needed to get out. To which he replied, “My last trip was to India too.” Says the man who’s going to the US the very next day and exploring Melbourne and South Australia in December. Then went on saying that I shouldn’t compare myself with everyone else, because everyone is going through different stages in their lives. Fine, I saw his point.. but barely. I’m still a stubborn human who needs to go on a trip somewhere, PRONTO.
So I spent the past week reorganising the blog. Everything’s done behind the scene, of course and you won’t see major changes till the new year. I’ve consolidated my blog posts from previous blogs, planning to republish them on a single blog in the near future. Been scouring around for successful blog tips and tricks. Being able to write well enough doesn’t mean your blog’s going to be awesome.
Plus, I’ve revived my Twitter. I spent a few hours re-reading my old, cringe worthy tweets from long ago and once I was done, I wiped them all out permanently. Some things are best left in the past, but it made me realise how much I’ve grown since.
Follow my Twitter feed @syfnzsays!
Of course, my Instagram is more active than my blog these days, and I’ve finally set up an IG widget on the sidebar if you’re interested in taking a look.
Other than these sporadic bursts of updates, I have only enough commitment and time on my hand to publish a weekly Motivational Monday column, till the year ends.. so do stay tuned!
Whether I am going to stay another three years on my own domain, or downgrade my ass back to using Blogger, only my funds can tell. Thankfully, I’ve earned enough to offset a good quarter of what it’ll cost to sustain my domain. Geez, these things are expensive, but a great investment I must say.
If you read up till this point, you’re a star! Thank you for being supportive of me and my blog. You are the ones I feel motivated to write for every post. Thank you, once again. And now back to spring cleaning.
